Change is in the night air.

I long have felt that while I have been on this trip, I feel like I am most willing to change the way things are at night. Don't get what I am talking about? Why change of course! I feel like I need to change somethings, let go of the old and embrace the new. I feel that something new is waiting for me, I just need to be willing to let it happen. I had the whole day to myself and I realized something, well I have known for a while but truly refuse to accept the fact, that I am a very guarded person, who is more unwilling to try things then I let on, I am very set in my ways, traditional in a sense, extrovert and an introvert. I have an amazing ability to be able to think myself out of doing something. I feel like I am not really a risk taker, it's kinda sad in a sense. I mean I have gone and done some really cool things, but it was in those moments that made them so cool, in day to day life I am nothing like the wild and untamed person that I know is inside me. Don't get me wrong, when I say wild and untamed I don't mean drink a ton and strip in a bar, I mean take risks, let my guard down, be a yes person, etc... Get what I am saying? I just wanna not care about the little things. I care way to much and I think that it is getting in my way of doing what I really need to.

As for getting back to the not so personal blog, today not much happened. Did some work, cleaned some clothes, took a shower, talked to the family, cleaned (of course!), updated my blog, facebook-ed, etc... But that is all I really want to talk about for now, but until later. Adios.